Brian was a threat to my marriage during this rough patch. It took me some time to realize this, but I eventually recognized this and asked for some space. He did not respect my request, but instead pushed harder to end my marriage.
Brian and I continued to talk—which, I’ll admit, was a bit of a stupid mistake—but I refused to talk about anything with him that I would have to hide from Keegan, therefore deflating his hot air balloon. But also because it just didn’t feel right; I wouldn’t have wanted Keegan to confide in some other woman behind my back.
Although Keegan had expressed a serious interest in being swingers, we really couldn’t even enjoy anything per say, mostly because I wasn’t healthy enough yet. Plus, Keegan didn’t feel comfortable trying to explain why we were living with his parents if the question was asked, despite the fact that we chose this living situation in order to build our beautiful 4,000 square-foot home that we live in today.
When we initially moved into our new home, both of our daughters had an incredibly hard time adjusting to life away from their grandparents. It wasn’t surprising though, because the only home they ever really knew was their grandparents’ and those were very formative years for them. Eventually, they came to enjoy and even preferred living in our own home, away from the grandparents. I’ll never forget the day my older daughter told me she was happy to be away from grandma. I was a mom who had always been throttled by a meddling mother-in-law, so it made me feel great to know that my kid preferred me, despite my medical issues, over that old hag.
We moved into our newly-built custom home the first week of December; we literally decorated for Christmas as we moved in. Meeting our new neighbors made me a bit leery about what they might think of us, considering our age difference, but we visited the construction site each day and got to know some of them really well. The girls have playmates and we now have people watching out for us should any unsavory company be in the area causing trouble.
Today, Keegan and I have finally entered the swinging lifestyle and we couldn’t be happier. Our goal at this time is to find a compatible couple who is comfortable with our differences to date on a regular basis, forming a true bond as friends and as a quad of lovers. We’ve gone out with a few couples, but have yet to find one that we really click with.
To say that we’ve “arrived” would be an understatement. We both continue to work very hard in our careers and our marriage. I’m currently in school full-time. Keegan has been promoted up to some very respectable positions and is doing wonderfully. Our children are happy, healthy, intelligent, and well-behaved, most of the time at least. Keegan and I are still madly in love.
I recently asked Keegan recently if he ever imagined his life to be what it is today, with me. He smiled brightly and answered, “It’s better than I ever could have imagined it would be.” I can honestly say that I’ve never been happier!