At the very back of the rack on the floor, under all the other white wedding dresses, was this champagne colored material. It caught my eye, so I picked it up and dusted it off.
I looked intently at this beautiful ivory and champagne colored dress with its intricate beading on the bodice, a satin feel of the material, and a princess-style cut with a 20-foot train that was embroidered with beaded flowers patterns and embellished with Swarovski crystals.
That was it. It was perfect. I didn’t know what size it was, the price, or if it would even fit in any remote fashion. But for me, it symbolized how perfectly imperfect I was, and how that was just what Keegan needed to flourish in the way he had since we became a couple. Keegan’s mother would detest the dress, but I could care less what she thought.
The dress was on sale for less than half the price and it was my size, but it needed some work. The clerk assisted me in gathering everything I would need to help make the dress fit properly, like a corset to support my voluptuous chest, the right undergarments, and six-inch heels. But even with the heels, the dress was too long. On top of that, I wanted to cover my shoulder tattoos and this dress was strapless, so I requested them to add thick embroidered straps.
There was just one problem—it would take six weeks for them to complete the alterations. The wedding was in four weeks. My heart just sank as I stood there staring at myself in this beautiful wedding dress. This wedding felt like nothing but a struggle. And now I wouldn’t be able to have the dress of my dreams. The store clerk and seamstresses talked to each other as they watched me. I hadn’t said anything after they told me it would take six weeks, but the store clerk was well aware of my short timeline.
I decided that rather than give up the dress, I would just attempt to do all the alterations myself. Right at that moment, one of the seamstresses told me that she could do it in two weeks’ time. Words can’t explain how ecstatic I was.
I put a corset, stockings, matching thong, garter belt, and shoes on layaway so that it could all be purchased at once when I came back for my last dress fitting in two weeks. It finally felt like everything was falling perfectly into place.