Michael smiled as I walked through the door. “There she is! The woman of the hour,” he said. He had never invited me over while the cleaning lady was there, let alone introduced me to her as his girlfriend. He instructed her to give me my own set of keys and security codes to his estate. “What’s going on?” I asked quietly while hugging him.
“Nothing, I just want you to feel at home here, to feel welcome. I want you in my life more often. Don’t get scared and run away. I would even like for you to live here if that’s what you choose. What do you say, dear? You can live here with me. I will have the maid rearrange the closet so that you have your own side and I will send my personal assistant shopping for anything you want to make you feel at home.”
I just stared at Michael, completely dumbfounded and blindsided. “I didn’t think you wanted a steady, serious relationship,” I said hesitantly.
Michael’s smile disappeared quickly. “Why, are you seeing someone else? Do you have someone else you love?”
“No, not at all,” I said quickly. “In fact, I was hoping to talk to you about that.”
The maid excused herself after handing me a key and security system codes. There we were, completely alone.
“Vivian, come sit with me. I think we need to have an honest conversation. I feel that we have different ideas of what we want and what our expectations are,” Michael said as he placed his hand on my lower back and led me to the couch. That seemed to be his favorite way to lead me around, gentle but controlling.
I jumped right in without waiting or hesitating. “I need more sex. I’m not with anyone else, and my physical needs are not being met, but I am doing everything I can to meet yours. Have you ever thought about taking the blue pill? ” I asked blushing and hoping I hadn’t just crossed a boundary that would upset Michael. “And I always feel like I’m walking on eggshells with you. I don’t know what that’s about.”
“Sweetheart, if I could take that medication, I would have already. You’ve got a hot little body and I would love to be able to please you, but I have a heart condition that prevents me from being eligible for it. If that’s important to you, let’s figure out a solution together,” he responded, much to my surprise.
This was the first time I felt like we had been truly honest with each other. It helped us in the long run, because from that point on, we maintained this brutally honest connection.