Josh proceeded to say that he was now married with two children, and the look on my face must have said more than I hoped.
“You know, when you left, I was crushed. I didn’t think I would find love again,” he said. I took a deep sigh, because through his joy, I could sense that I had deeply hurt him. He looked at my ring and continued, “I’m glad we both found love again, Cassandra. I just hope you’re as happy as I am.”
I smiled and looked away. Immediately, he knew. After all, this was a man who, at one time, wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. “Tell me,” he said, “What’s going on with you?”
Part of me wanted to tell him everything. I wanted to tell him that the reason I broke off our engagement wasn’t because I didn’t love him, but because I was caught up in a passionate affair that I now regretted. I wanted to tell him that that affair was with the same man who I was currently breaking my vows with again. I wanted to tell him that I was sorry, and that I was happy he finally found true love. I wanted to tell him that I still loved him and that I made a huge mistake. But instead, I took a deep breath.
“It’s a long story Josh.” I took a sip of my coffee and smiled. For a second, I imagined that I was his again. I was taken back to a time where things were less confusing, when love was all I knew. My love for him was greater than it ever was for Derrick, my lover, and sadly even for my husband, Robert. If it had not been for my affair with Derrick, I am certain that I would be happily married with children. I would have been that voluptuous blonde kissing him goodbye.
My thoughts were interrupted by Josh grabbing his phone. All I could do was stare at him and wait. “Mary, baby, I ran into an old ex… No, honey, it was Cassandra. I will tell you everything when I get home, OK? I love you, baby. See you tonight.” He put his phone down and looked up at me with well-known eyes. “I’m all yours, darling.”
I bit my lip and smiled. I was ready for the truth to come out.