I was sitting in the airport bar drinking a glass of wine and reviewing my to-do list to prepare for travel. What I should have been doing is giving myself a much needed pep talk. Instead, I was reviewing everything that had to be completed before this trip. It was the usual stuff, like drop clothes off at the dry cleaners; stop at the salon for color, pedicure, manicure, and waxing; pick up the clothes from the dry cleaners; clean out the refrigerator; put the trash out; laundry; and pack.
The bartender finally snapped me out of my deep thoughts. My first response to her was, “What?” I seriously did not hear what she said to me. She took me by surprise. I asked her to repeat what she said. Again, she relayed to me that when I walked into the bar, a gentleman who had been sitting nearby asked her if I was a model. I was tall, and taller today due to the high heel boots I was wearing. I smiled and told her no, but I would take it as a compliment. I was smiling, but inside my heart was sinking because I had no idea who I was.
I kept telling myself that this was my best way out. I would be fine; this plan would pay off in the end. My best friend, Tori, was on board, too. When I did get too farfetched with my ideas, Tori was quick to reel me in. She had not done that with this idea. Instead, she was the one who helped me come to this conclusion. She knew I needed to do this.
It wouldn’t be so bad. I thought the Greek God was sexy and kind, just the sort of man I could fall in love with. I just couldn’t go there this time. After all, I didn’t know how many other women he had this arrangement with. What did his wife think of this arrangement? Did she know? Did she have her own sugar daddy on the side, too? How long had they lived this way? Did he love her? It was interesting; I had never really thought these things with the Stetson man. Yes, I knew he was married, but it was different with him. He was open—we had talked and gotten to know one another before he was my sugar daddy. He told me so many times how much he loved me. There was a time, not too long ago, when we were planning a future together…